First things first

First things first. I am a culinary student about to finish school. Going through the waves of emotions (yes, I am a woman) of the Balzac age, as well as the doubts of my own knowledge of what I've been proposing myself to do as a profession.
I do not doubt my culinary skills, however I do feel a little insecure. Insecurity, that is (probably) the right word for some of my problems. Maybe so.

I've been losing control and I no longer have control of some, big, part of my own. What would I do? I keep trying to endure things on my own, over and over again.
This kind of behavior could be the end of my sanity.

Sometimes, More often than I wish, I feel myself going crazy.
Am I crazy?